I am a fucking crazy woman.

There are days when I surprise even myself.

That is all :)

It's been a fairly amusing day. I've been getting lots o work done, and spent a few mins of my day flirting with someone over email, which is *always* entertaining. We're still waiting on z0rggy's test results, but I'm not actively seeking them. They'll call when they call. I let him out today because he looks like he's feeling much better, and he's been in all week and deserves his freedom. Besides, if I need him for some reason, I know where to find him.

I spent a portion of Wednesday and yesterday evening cleaning my house from top to bottom because it needed it. I'll run Domo2 today, but other than that, I'm not cleanin' nothin! My friend S has gotten me on a Sergio Leone kick, so he's coming over to watch Once Upon A Time in America with me tonight. He's my resident cinema-torian. "You never saw this? Watch it!" :P.

Tomorrow, we're painting the mega Connect 4 board! Should be fun and messy! I think we're bbq'ing afterwards. I don't know what I'm doing Sunday. Either nothing (ie, sticking around the house to be close to z0rg) or going to the St.Stupid's Day parade. I haven't decided yet.

Anyway, that's about it for me today. I need to finish lunch, go to Target real quick, and then get back to work. My bosslady's got me workin on a hotel project. w00p!

What are the 3 most important things in your life? Why?

I have 5, actually :

1. My Josh. It took a major relationship to fail to get me to realize that everything in a relationship is a two-way street. And this time around, I think we're doing pretty well! We never fight about the big stuff like money, relationships, etc, but more about stupid things like picking up after ourselves and cleaning the kitchen :P. So, at least we communicate about the big things! It's nice to have someone to come home to everyday. And nice to have someone to vent to about other things happening in my life. And someone to have fun with. I'm pretty happy overall in my relationship. Even during the stressful times, I wouldn't trade it for anything else!

5. My job. I don't love my job because of the money. I don't make a ton, but I make enough to get by. No, I love my job because the work itself is interesting (and I'm learning all the time) and the people I work with are genuinely good people. Seriously, it's the best job I've ever had. The best boss I've ever had. And the best opportunity to move forward that I've ever had. It's cool to wake up in the morning and not dread going to work!

A random thought occurred to me this morning: 'How come in all the documentaries, interviews, etc, the one album that Metallica never mentions is '...And Justice For All'?

It's *such* a fucking good album. And it shows just how good (even if certain people in the band are assholes) of musicians that they *all* are. Hard, angry, technical, sad, death-related....soooo good. One of those, "See...*that* is what heavy metal is about" albums.

But how come the band just skipped over it? Did they not like it? Was it just something they did to help them get over the death of Cliff and they just wanted to move on, so they don't mention it? Answers! I want answers!

In the meantime, even if you don't like heavy metal, this is one of the best albums from beginning to end. Evar.

In no particular order:
1. Metallica - ...And Justice For All
2. Guns n' Roses - Appetite For Destruction
3. Smashing Pumpkins - Gish
4. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Bloodsugarsexmagik
5. Tesla - The Great Radio Controversy
6. Faith No More - The Real Thing
7. Alice In Chains - Facelift

It's not often when an *entire* album is good. There are usually one or two mediocre songs, but there are albums that do exist that are just good from the first track to the last. And '...And Justice For All' is certainly one of them.

And just as a side note, I feel awful old at the moment becuase I realized that all of those albums came out all by 1991. Thus prooving just how impressionable I was back then! *leans on cane*....ah....thems was the days!

So, because the vet didn't run a certain test yet, z0rg may or may not have a urinary tract infection. We'll get those test results Friday. In the meantime, (once I get him inside) we'll start him on antibiotics. If it turns out that he *doesn't* have a UTI and it's his kidneys, I'm going to have to put him to sleep. I am not made of money, and I just can't afford to keep going back and forth to the vet. But more importantly, if his kidneys are failing and he can't lead the life he wants to lead, then what's the point in making him stay alive until his kidneys finally peter out?

So, it's antibiotics for him until Friday. And we'll have to take him to the vet again before then so they can show us how to give him fluids underneath the skin so he doesn't get dehydrated. The bills are piling up, but I'm going to just try and see this situation for what it is, and try and think as positive as I can about it. He's been a good cat and he's had a good life so I can't feel *too* awful bad about things.

Even tho I do.

Update 3/28, 9:38am: I went and got z0rg's antibiotics, and they went ahead and just gave me the I.V. and fluids to give him. They verbally gave me instructions and then also gave me written ones also. After getting over my fear of needles and of hurting him, it didn't go too badly. I had to hold him to keep him from squirming, but he did just fine. I also gave him a double dose (4 hours apart) of antibiotics last night. I think they're starting to work because he *didn't* wake us up howling at 5am this morning. So he's feeling punky from the drugs, but he *looks* a whole lot better, so that's good. I gave him his meds this morning and then some treats cause he's so good about taking it. So tonight when I get home, it's another I.V. for him and then his meds later in the evening.

I'm going to stick around home until we figure out what's going on for sure. I'll be home tonight, and I canceled my plans for tomorrow. A friend of mine wants to hang out Friday, but I told him he had to haul his hiney over to my place so I could be near the kids. I just want to spend as much time with the z0rgmeister as possible right now, for I do not know right at this time just how much time I have. But in the end, I know he's had a good life. My policy regarding my kids is this: they aren't on this earth for very long, so spoil the shit out of them as much as possible. It works! And they're all horribly spoiled. So in the end, they can think, "Ah, I've had a good life!".

"To announce that there must be no criticism of the President, or that we are to stand by the President right or wrong, is not only unpatriotic and servile, but is morally treasonable to the American public."-- Theodore Roosevelt

So, we've been keeping z0rg in while he's not feeling well. We're supposed to get test results back today and then if meds are needed, we'll get him some of those. This morning tho when I went to let G out, he squeezed out. It really was an honest mistake, but boy was Josh pissed at me. I guess z0rg kept him up most of the morning (I slept thru it), so I can see his frusteration. I followed him around outside, but he made his way underneath the neighbor's house, and I couldn't get under it. But oh well. It's not like we don't know where to find him. We'll just put a call in to his other family. That's how we got him Saturday night. I'm not too worried.

Anyway, I hope the day goes a little smoother from here.

Ug.

First, Josh called to let me know that not only did z0rggy have a horrible case of fleas, but he was very dehydrated and may have a urinary tract infection. WTF? I didn't see fleas on *anyone*! I gave Squeeek and Gracila flea meds on Friday, but didn't have enough for z0rg, and he wasn't feeling well anyway, so I was waiting. The vet went ahead and gave him some Advantage and de-wormed him for good measure. They also pumped him full of fluids. Blood/urine tests should be back tomorrow to determine what is ailing him.

Then, my Mammaw's ashes arrived in this horribly battered box delivered by the USPS. And so, it's really real. There's a box sitting on the desk next to the window with human remains in it. I'm trying to get to Yosemite next month to spread the ashes, but if that doesn't pan out, I will get something to put them in. Urns are horribly expensive (basically for no reason), and so I'll look around and find a nice container. It sounds gruesome, but putting the ashes in a zip lock bag (instead of the twist-tie bag their in at the moment) and then putting them in a container will keep them nicely.

Anyway, now that I have a double whammy against me this afternoon, I'm fairly depressed. Meh.

So, I had half a case of fleas once in my house and after bombing it twice and learning that Advantage worked, I've never had problems since. Since all 3 of the cats go in and out, the rule in the house is that to go outside, everyone's got to have their shots up to date and flea meds.

I had this awsome vet in Santa Rosa who told me that it's way cheaper (and it's the exact same stuff, just in a higher dose) to just buy the Advantage for big dogs, put it into a test tube, and take a needleless syringe and give it to the cats that way. And he's right! It works really well. A 4-tube pack costs like $40 at the feed store, but anywhere from $50-80 at the pet stores and vets. A vet friend of mine said that it's not necessary to give them flea meds every month, that every other month works just fine. So, a 4-pack of Advantage lasts me like 2 years or something like that.

I didn't want to drop $70 at the pet store for more meds, so I went looking on ebay the other day. I found a 4-pack for $25 plus $5 shipping! w00h00! Cheaper than the feed store, even!

I love it when I'm thrifty :)

So, I had my dentist appointment today. I have one cavity in one of my front teeth, but it's the first cavity in 4 years, so I'm not too bummed out. I'll get that taken care of next Monday. The dentist seems to think that certain teeth of mine are hurting because my bite plane is no longer doing it's j-o-b because it's so old and falling apart, so it's time to get a new one. I'm getting fitted for that next week as well. It's gonna be $500, but if I can get it to last me as long (if not longer) as my current bite plane (which I've had since 1993), then that'll be good. I can't sleep without it, so I just have to bite the bullet and sink further into debt.

I have had so much dental work done (and a handful of bad dental experiences) over the past 10 years that I have become quite the dentist weeny. I won't even get my teeth cleaned without gas. Fortunatly, my dentist lady is quite awsome (and very painless) and she caters to my dental whimpy side. The charge for nitrous is $25, but who gives a crap? It just means I have to eat lunch at the office all this week. Big woop.

So, my anxiety about going to the dentist is over, and I'm not worried about next week's visit. Gas, music, drill, fill, done.

1. What kind of automobile do you drive?
A 1996 Saturn.

2. What kind of automobile do you WISH you drove?
I don't really care. Cars take me from Point A to Point B. If I drove a lot like I used to, I might care. But I don't drive that much anymore, so as long as it runs, I'm good with it!

3. When is the last time you bought a vehicle (new or used)?
March of 2001.

4. What is your color of choice as far as vehicles go?
Purple. Blue if I have to go 'conventional'.

5. Do you regularly have your oil changed?
Of course! And it's especially important in Saturns, as they go thru oil like it's going out of style. My car usually need a quart or two every 1000-1500 miles. There's no leak, it just likes oil! Thank goodness it's cheap!

6. How long do you generally keep a vehicle before thinking about buying a new one?
I was always taught that you keep a vehicle until it dies. I'll probly keep my vehicle until 'it's just time' to get a new one. My goal is 200,000 miles. I'm at 159k currently. And when I do get a new car, I'll probly lease one.

7. What kind of automobile will you buy next?
Who knows? I suppose it depends on how much money I have to spend, the need, and my mood.

It's such a nice morning today! It's all foggy/cloudy, and you can barely see where the fog burns off to the east. It's not too cold outside, and everything's blooming so it smells great too. I couldn't have asked for a better morning. Totally fits my mood (laid back and slow moving) today! This morning's coffee from the bakery sucks as usual, but I guess you can't have everything, eh?

Yesterday was a nice day all around. I woke up around 11, made myself some coffee, and spent the rest of my morning playing GH and watching Tv with z0rggy. I think he may have had something because he was very slow moving and all he wanted to do was sleep from Wednesday until this morning at 6:30am when he decided he wanted to go out and nothing was going to stop him. Josh is taking him to the vet this afternoon at 2p, so he can't go out until then. Anyway, I just kept him company on the couch most of the day. I also crochet'd a lot. I'm finally starting to come along on that scarf that I started so long ago! After the scarf comes a big blanket, I think. We'll see. Anyway, around 4, I took a shower and then without telling me where we were going, Josh took me to Lafayette to Jackson's (the place where we get our scotch)! w00h00! So, we got a couple of nice bottles of scotch to sip while we watched the season finale of BSG. I haven't been big on drinking lately, so it took me like 4 hours to finish one finger, but it was still yummy! After homemade burritos (breakfast kind for me, like B used to make) were had for dinner, we just lazed around (more sitting with z0rggy) until it was time to watch BSG at around 10:15p.

Maybe it was just my ubber laid back mood yesterday, but I did not think for a season finale, that it was that spectacular. It was kinda predictable and my reaction was kinda like, "I have to wait 9 months for another episode after *that*? Meh!". But maybe I'll go back and watch it again and I won't think it'll be so bad afterall. Or not :P

In addition to work today, I have a dentist cleaning in half an hour, and then I'm going to my needle guy after work. I *hate* the dentist. I have such a great fear that I get an anxiety attack just thinking about it. I also have a tooth that is bothering me, which freaks me out even more. I'm such a sissy about going to the dentist now-a-days that I won't even get my teeth cleaned without gas. *shudder* Oh well...I guess it's better than not going at all and having my teeth fall out of my head!

Anyway, I better get on with my day.

I had my heart set on coming home and doing like 6 loads of laundry last night (yes, I know that I'm insane). There were one or two good nights of my week, but the rest of it was pretty tiring, and all I wanted to do was clean. Now, there are 5 washers and 4 dryers in this building for 40 people. Pretty do-able, except for that the entire time I've lived here, none of the dryers have ever worked all at once. Now there are 5 washers and 2 dryers for 40 apartments in this building. And, there were 3 loads of laundry ahead of me. I was not terribly happy at all.

I started my first 3 loads, finished other people's laundry (folded it and put it on the table...how rude is it just to throw ppl's laundry in a heap to wrinkle?), and was trying to get the rest of my stuff done when I got an email from a friend saying that if I wanted to have a conversation with their hottub, I was more than welcome. Oh goody! But shit...I'm in the middle of doing laundry, dammit! Josh saved the day and offered to finish my laundry for me. He's such a nice boy! He did a good job too! So, I went hottubbin, and it was very relaxing, and the night was pretty damn good afterall. The thing that struck me while I was sitting in the hottub was how damn *good* it smelled outside that night. Everything is blooming right now and the air smelled sweet and fragrant and it was like you could drink the air if you had the correct device. It was heavenly.

I got home around 10:30p, put away laundry, watched the news, talked to Josh, and then went to bed around midnight. I was woken up by the damn fone ringing this morning. I keep getting this automated call that isn't for me almost every damn day. Next time that happens, I'm going to threaten to file a complaint with the FTC. I'm gettin tired of that stuff. So, after failing to fall back asleep, I got up, paid bills, cleaned up my inbox, and Josh got up and made me coffee.

I don't think I'm doing anything today. This afternoon, there was talk of going to Josh's parents house to say hi, then on to a party in Martinez.

I snapped at Josh over something stupid because I'm a morning grump, so I better go smooth that over. Then it's on to much more lazy things like watching movies and playing GH!

I did not sleep well last night at all. I stopped taking my sleeping meds, and so that may have something to do with it. Also, my covers were all fsked up (I haven't been making my bed on purpose as a *poke* to myself to wash my bedding) and I kept waking up hot. Meh meh meh.

And so, my brain's been a bit fuzzy all morning so far. Like I'm expecting something bad to happen or something. But I can't think like that! So, I'll just try and think positively.

Oh well...at least it's Friday!

(This is *so* me. Try as I might, I do some of the negative things on this list.)

What makes an ISTJ tick?

The Dominant function is the perceptive one of Sensing. Characteristics associated with this function include:

* Likes looking at information in terms of facts and details
* Focuses more on the here and now rather than possibilities for the future
* Feels comfortable in areas of proven experience
* Takes a realistic approach

The perceptive Sensing function is introverted. That is, Sensing is used primarily to govern the inner world of thoughts and emotions. The ISTJ will therefore:

* Seek to develop a realistic understanding of the world as it is, in the light of what he/she observes
* Be pragmatic in nature, constantly learning to adapt to the world as it is now
* Observe in a subjective way, selecting and relating facts that others would not, and seeing those facts more in terms of impressions and significance than pure fact

The Sensing function is primarily supported by extraverted Thinking judgement, That is, Thinking judgement is used primarily to manage the outer world of actions and spoken words. This will modify the way that the Sensing is directed, by:

* focusing the (inner world) Sensing on impersonal facts and logical options
* tending to spot flaws and injustices
* making decisions on the basis of logical analysis that support the ISTJ's understanding of the world.

The classic temperament of an ISTJ is Epimethean, or Melancholic, for whom a basic driving force is duty, service and the need to belong.
Contributions to the team of an ISTJ

In a team environment, the ISTJ can contribute by:

* working hard and efficiently to complete tasks by the deadlines set
* sorting ideas and identifying those that are most practical
* applying a common sense approach to problem solving
* maintaining team focus on the objective
* contributing practical organisational skills
* applying procedures and methodologies
* applying relevant and realistic logical arguments

The potential ways in which an ISTJ can irritate others include:

* focusing too much on the current task at the expense of longer term or interpersonal issues
* not articulating his/her understanding of the situation
* not seeing the wood for the trees
* being too serious
* seeming to be inflexible
* not encouraging others to experiment or innovate
* not promoting his/her own ideas or achievements

Personal Growth
As with all types, the ISTJ can achieve personal growth by developing all functions that are not fully developed, through actions such as:

* articulating more of the ISTJ's own views
* developing a long term vision, that avoids focusing on details
* developing a greater understanding of how people feel
* changing things on an experimental basis to see if they can be improved
* learning to promote the ISTJ's ideas and achievements to others, recognising that others may well find them valuable
* making decisions on the basis of how others will feel, rather than objective considerations

Recognising Stress

As stress increases, 'learned behaviour' tends to give way to the natural style, so the ISTJ will behave more according to type when under greater stress. For example, in a crisis, the ISTJ might:

* find a place of solitude in which to think and work
* use tried and trusted means of solving problems
* direct or criticise others' efforts
* use pragmatic solutions at the expense of the long term

Under extreme stress, fatigue or illness, the ISTJ's shadow may appear - a negative form of ENFP. Example characteristics are:

* having a gloomy view of a future
* suggesting impractical ideas
* acting impulsively, and changing things without any thought
* having intense negative feelings towards others (though these might not be expressed)

The shadow is part of the unconscious that is often visible to others, onto whom the shadow is projected. The ISTJ may therefore readily see these faults in others without recognising it in him/her self.

I swear, I'm such a headcase sometimes. I spent 3 days being pissed off and worrying about something that...wait for it....wait for it!.....worked itself out. Why the hell do I do that to myself? If I would have *not* spent the 3 days worrying about it, it still would have worked itself out! I gotta learn to trust more.

I had the most awsome night last night hanging out with a friend of mine. Very relaxing. A great way to say, "Hey, the week is halfway over! Yahoo!". Tonight is the Planners meeting, which should be interesting. Tomorrow will probly be 'get things done around the house' night. I have like 4 loads of laundry to do, the bathroom needs to be cleaned, and I'm sure the house will need to be vacuumed. Saturday, there's a Shark's game on TV at 4, and then I think we're going to a party in the evening. Sunday looks pretty bare, so that's good. I'm looking forward to a nice and relaxing weekend.

Anyway, I gotz work to do today!

(stolen from an email I got this morning)

"[it's] Just my contribution to Entropy, without which, the Universe would ever keep developing into higher ordered states, until some Cosmic Calamity restores balance by sucking it up into the Big Bong."

hehehe :)

1.How would you describe your personality? Do you like it? Why/why not?
Well, the tests say I'm right in the middle of being Type A and Type B, but I think I have a tendency to lean more towards being Type A. I'm an anal retentive neat-nick who usually has to have her way and who often thinks (wrong or right) that her way is the best way. While it makes me efficient, it also makes me a real bitch sometimes :P. I do try and work on these things, but it doesn't always come thru. All I can do is acknowledge my personality and try and tweak the things I don't like about it.

2. What type of personality do you like the best? Why?
I suppose it depends on my mood. I have a good friend who has pretty much my personality, and we get along very well. We're anal about the same things. When someone does something stupid, we're usually in agreement about it. Actually, it's very nice because I don't know very many people like myself. But hanging out with someone like yourself all the time isn't necessarily a good thing. It's good to also hang out with people who aren't like yourself at all. Which is probly why I like Josh so much. Even tho we have a great many things in common, we are pretty opposite when it comes to handling things. I'm uptight, he can lean back, look at it and say, "eh, it's not that bad". I have learned a lot from him, and need to learn more.

3. Do you believe that there are just certain personalities that don't mix well? Why/why not? When you are put in a situation with someone who is vastly different than you, how do you deal with it?
Sure, there is such a thing as personality clashing, but it's how you handle it that matters. I deal with people all of the time who are nothing like me. Take my mother for example. We're about as opposite now as two people can get. It's kinda ironic seeing as how we used to practically be the same person. But now-a-days, we have as much in common as a door and a fish. But, I can deal with her when I need to. It's much harder to get along with someone who has nothing in common with you, but it *can* be done. In these situations, I usually take the passive route, letting the other person do what they want. Sometimes it's because it's easier to let them have their way. Sometimes it's because I just plain don't have an opinion/care. The key to dealing with people is to be mindful of your environment. I try and take into consideration who I'm dealing with (their personality type), where I am, what the situation is, etc. But obviously, I'm far from perfect. Everyday is a battle to be the better person. But I suppose that's just the way life is. It'd kinda be boring otherwise, don'tcha think?

So, after my rant yesterday, a friend of mine sent me an email basically telling me to STFU, that I am too hard on Josh at times, and that I should just chill out in general, else I'm going to drive my self crazy. Truth hurts sometimes, don't it? :P.

She's right tho. I *have* been ubber high strung lately. I mellow, then something happens and I go right back to being high strung again. I need to work on staying constant. And granted, I haven't been trying at *all* lately.

So...I'll work on things on this end and put some effort into it.

$20 in rape charges for 2 tickets is fucking ridiculous. But it seems to be the only way to guarentee a ticket to a show that you *really* want to go to. $85 for The Shins on 4/17, and I just blew another $81 for the Peeping Tom show on 4/25. But oh well...both shows will rock balls.

I spent most of yesterday very pissed off at a friend of mine. Lesson? Don't be dishonest to me! Goofy people. *shakes head*. It didn't make for a great day. And then after work, we went to see this place that Josh liked, but I ended up not really liking. The bedrooms were kinda small and I wasn't sure they'd fit our beds and there was no parking. That's kind of a deal killer for me. I need somewhere to park. There was a garage, but it was so narrow that there's no way my car would fit in there next to the gas guzzling SUV that parks on the other side. And there's parking on the street, but there might as well be no parking available because it was so sparce. I still am of the mind that if we just keep looking, we'll find exactly what we want. And I suppose it's time for me to start looking also because I do not believe things are progressing as fast as they should be. Of course, I could just be(or more likely probly am) being impatient, but if we don't move by June,we can't move until October (I am not going to try and move and help plan a campout plus go to 2 or 3 more *and* Josh will spend at least a month getting ready for Burning Man...no way...too much stress). However, I did get to watch the latest BSG, which makes me look forward to the season finale on Sunday. I may even have to stay up to watch it instead of watching it on Monday!

I woke up this morning in a better mood, but that was tainted when I went down to my car to find that even tho Josh said he would put the Club on my car last night, he did not. This is a *huge* deal. He doesn't seem to understand the severity of the situation, so as a result, he thinks I'm just being picky and putting him down. Forgetting to take out the trash like you said you would leads to forgetting to pay a bill that leads to getting the cable shut off which leads to forgetting to put the Club on the car which leads to someone stealing it again, and I certainly *don't* want that to happen! He refuses to try and come up with a method of remembering things, and so I am at a loss. I'm pretty upset about it, but I have no idea what to do. He won't even work with me on it. So, I'm pretty much not talking to him at the moment because I don't have anything nice to say.

Also, I lightly got into it with someone from one of the lists I'm on. We kissed and made up, but it makes me wonder, "Is it really me?". If it's happened twice today, it's got to be. I try and be calm and nice, but no matter what I do, I piss someone off. So, I think I'm probly better off hiding underneath my desk today. I was so upset yesterday that I guess I am still subconsciously irked. Guess I better turn it around, eh?

I'm not doing much of anything tonight. Actually, I have zero plans, which is nice. Tomorrow I'm hanging out with a friend of mine, and Thursday is the Planners meeting.

My admin is still out, so I'm having to divide up my time between Job 1 & Job 2. I never knew how much I couldn't get done until I actually hired someone to do my old job and then they aren't around right now! Hopefully she'll be back tomorrow. Apparently she got some bug which blew up into something else which lead to surgery or something. No fun! So, I hope she gets better soon and comes back to play with us! I'm mostly caught up tho, so that's good.

Anyway, that's about it for me.

Friday night, we didn't do much except to go grocery shopping quickly, which was nice. Saturday, Josh went and helped J&M move into their new house, and I went to Schreck's and helped him grout and sand the Connect 4 board holes. We split up the work down the middle, and it was no big deal. After that, I made an appearance at Tracy & Matt's St.Patty's Day party. We got home around 12:30a, and were asleep about 15 mins later.

I woke up at noon yesterday, threw on some clothes, made some coffee, and headed back to Schreck's to finish the board. Nick finally showed up around 2 and we were able to do the final touches and play a game (see picts below)! Now all we have to do is prime and paint it, which is what we're doing in 2 weeks.

I got home around 5:15p yesterday and Stefi had come over to watch the Sharks game with Josh. We had corned beef and potatoes for dinner. After the game was done, Stefi went home and Josh and I watched Episode V in HD until it was time for me to watch my Crap Show. When that was over at 10p, we went to bed.

Tonight's plan is to watch last night's BSG. I wish that it was on earlier in the evening, but no one cares what I think :P. 11pm is too late for me to stay up on a Sunday night. It's not a big deal really, but I know I can't be the only one with this complaint.

Anyway, my admin is out *again* this week, and so I have 2 jobs to do so I better hop to it.

1. How many times do you wake up during the night?
Usually once or twice. I gots me a small bladder.

2. On an average, how many hours of sleep do you try to get?
I get between 7 and 8 hours of sleep, normally. I try and get more when I can. I like my sleep.

3. What day of the week do you do your "major" housecleaning?
I used to clean on Tuesdays. Now I clean whenever I decide the house needs it.

4. How often do you move your furniture to clean behind it?
People actually do that?

5. Do you do your dishes by hand or do you own a dishwasher?
It depends. Most of the time I just throw them in the dishwasher, but sometimes I do them by hand. It just depends on how many dishes I have to wash and how much time I have to do it.

Well, the mega Connect 4 board is finished! Now all we have to do is pain the thing in a couple of weeks and we'll be ready to debut it at the 4/19 mb&b!!

Below are pictures of Nick and myself playing the very first game on the new board!

I couldn't begin to pinpoint why, but I've decided that today has very good potential to be an awsome day. The air is mostly clear, things are blooming, and the weather is warm. And most of all, it's Friday! After being in a funk for most of the week, it's finally time to have an 'up' day.

Last night, Schreck picked me up around 8p and we went to Beats & Boardgames at the Canvas Gallery. This is one of the last few times because the Canvas is shutting down at the end of next month, so I made myself go. I had a good time drinking $2 Pilsner Urquell and chatting it up with people. I didn't play any games this time around, but just hanging out with people was fun. Ivan came by around 10:30p or so and we hung out and drunk beer for about an hour before I was ready to go home and go to bed. He was in the city anyway, so he was happy to give me a ride home. Yay for Ivan! I was pretty damn exhausted yesterday from having such a long day. Schreck had wanted to stay longer, so that's why I got a ride home with Ivan. As it turns out, we actually left about 20 mins within each other, but oh well! The goal was to get home and go to bed, and that I did!

I think Josh is going to a Shark's game tonight, so I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself. Probly a whole lot of nothing, which sounds just fine to me! I'm tired from my week. Tomorrow's goal is to get to Safeway and Trader Joe's for some grocery shopping (my fridge is looking rather bare these days) and then there's a St.Patty's day party at Tracy & Matt's tomorrow night. Sunday, I'll probly end up dragging my ass out of bed to go help finish the Connect 4 board. It needs to get finished, the main people who are heading this project need the help, and we really want to get it done so we can take it to at least one mb&b before it's non-existant for awhile.

Anyway, I have some numbers to run and 4 beta bowls to clean, so I better pretend to get to it!

Update: So, I guess Josh isn't going to the Shark's game tonight. We're gonna go do our grocery shopping instead around 8pm to avoid all the shoppers. That means I can sleep the day away tomorrow! I also forgot to mention that last night's mb&b music was exceptionall good this week. I only got thru 2 dj's (a guest dj...I think her name was Rachel maybe? and Ian's), but I really enjoyed the music. We gotta find a new home for our gig.

1. Are you a morning person? What's your ideal time to get out of bed? Why?
Nope, not at all. My brain doesn't usually wake up til 10 or 11am. If I had my way, I'd get up around 10a. I'd compromise with 9 tho. I can physcially get up early, but my brain just doesn't wake up til later in the morning. It's almost counter-productive.

2. What is your morning schedule like?
I get up at 7:30a and take a shower. Then I get out and dry off. Next comes a little Olay so I'm not old and crusty at 40. Then comes body spray or perfume, depending on what kind of mood I am. Then I get dressed, put in my contacts, and do something with my hair. After that, I greet the munchkins and give them treats and put on my jewlry. Then I gather my clothes up from the bathroom, take them into the bedroom, and wake Josh up. Then it's socks and shoes and I'm out the door usually by 7:50am. I could leave as late as 8:15a, but 7:50 is just usually when I end up out the door. I'm usually at work between 8:15 and 8:20a.

3. Do you like the sun being out and the birds chirping when you wake up, or do you prefer the opposite? Why?
I couldn't tell you why, but I've never been much of a sunshine person. Sure, if it's gone for too long I start to miss it, but if I wake up in the morning and it's foggy or raining, I'm a happy camper. The down side of that is that it just makes me want to go back to bed. I just find sunlight harsh to my eyes and I welcome those days where I can see outside without squinting. *shrug*. I suppose this makes me sound negative, but I don't mean it that way. I just like cloudy/foggy mornings, that's all!

After I come back from a trip, I tend to go into Hermit Mode. It's especially bad this time around probly because I had to deal with going home, even if it was only for 4 days. I don't wanna hang out with anyone (well, only the spchul ppl, and yall know who you are), I don't want to deal with any crap, and I certainly don't want to leave the house. At least, not on my own will. If someone calls me up and says, "Hey, come hang out with me", of course I will!

I was supposed to go out last night. Then tonight. Then I may go to mb&b tomorrow, then there's a party Saturday night. Then there's another Connect 4 party at Schreck's Sunday afternoon. Something in me snapped and I canceled all of my plans. I'm now taking everything one day at a time. I stayed home last night and had salmon for dinner and hung out with the munchkins and watched My Life, which was surprisingly decent. After that, I played a little GH, watched an episode of Good Eats, and went to bed.

The person that we were supposed to go out with tonight is coming to the house instead. Yay, I like it when people accomodate me! I haven't heard back from my usual ride to mb&b about tomorrow, so I dunno if I'm doing that or not. I have to go to Saturday night's party because I flaked on the same people last night. And Sunday...well, if I get up and am motivated, I'll go. If not, I won't. The only thing going on next week so far is that there's a Planners meeting in SF on Wednesday that I can't miss. Other than that, I may continue to lay low. We'll see.

I'm not in a bad mood or anything, I just have this urge to lay low and stay fairly close to home.

So, as part of my body still recovering from the past year's medical issues, I have to keep a mindful eye on it (especially anything to do with digestive system or keeping things balanced) or things start to go out of wack. Right now, my body pH is totally screwy. I'm going to the doctor's today (wimin's issues due to pH being off) and it's time to start the probiotics again. And I'm sure that nasty apple cider vinegar can't do me wrong.

My troubles started when I got stressed out due to Mammaw's death, started taking over 5000mg of C a day so I wouldn't get sick when I went home, and then got exceedingly drunk 3 days before I went home. I didn't get sick, but I think I totally knocked my pH out of wack. The getting drunk part was kinda stupid. Stupid me. So, I'll talk to the doctor, but taking myself down to 1000mg of C is probly a good idea. From what I read, it's not supposed to have any side affects, but I guess if I was OD'ing on it, it may not have helped matters.

Who knows. All I *do* know is that I can *tell* something is out of wack and I need to find a way to fix it.

Update: Doctor gave me some cream stuff and I should be fine in a couple of days. I've also started on the probiotics stuff again and did the nasty apple cider vinegar. I need to be nicer to my body :P. Lesson: no more getting shit-faced drunk!

Remember Chunk from the movie The Goonies? Well, he's an entertainment lawyer in L.A. now.

Heh....I love 'where are they now' stories :)

Well, I made it there and back without major incident (*or* getting sick!), so that's good!

I got in about 25 minutes late on Thursday evening. Mom and her bf Dale picked me up at the airport about 8:30p. We went to the Texas Roadhouse for dinner. Because my mom is...well, my mom, we went thru 3 booths before she found one that suited her. *shakes head*. I kept my mouth shut, but it was hard :P. I guess in 2 or 3 counties in Indy, they have banned smoking in public places, which rocks. This was the case in Hendricks county, so I didn't have to specify where I wanted to sit, which was nice. You know it was the midwest because when I went to order a beer, the only decent beer they had was Killians. *shakes head again*. We finally got thru dinner and then made it to mom's house. We watched the news and shot the shit for awhile before they went to bed. I stayed up for awhile and spoiled her cats with treats and watched TV before going to bed around 1am.

Let me tell you something about live TV: It fucking sux!! Good lord, I missed my Tivo!

Friday, mom and I got up around 10:30a and had breakfast, ran an errand, and then dad picked me up at mom's around 1:45p and we headed up to Munchie to go eat cheap pizza and drink good beer at the Heorot. 4 hours, 2 pizzas, many beers, a hoodie, and a t-shirt later, we got out of there for about $65, which I was very impressed with! Altho it's still the same place with much of the same clientele, it's different. None of the same bartenders are around anymore, the physical place itself has become cluttered with beams to make it 'feel' a certain way, and for cripes sake, they put *color* in their logo, fully equipped with a lame tagline of 'It's all about the beer!". Well of fucking *course* it is! Why the hell else would I go there but to drink *beer*? They also accept credit cards now, which doesn't seem like a big deal, but they were cash only for so long that it kind of ruins the culture of the place. I had fun hanging out with my dad, eating and drinking, but I think I have outgrown Munchie alltogether. Well, all of Indiana really, but that's another paragraph.

On the way up to Munchie, I gave my friend Micah a call to let him know I was in towne. I waited until I got there to call him because I really didn't want to tell him about Mammaw because he spent an entire summer around her, and I knew he'd probly be upset. Now, my history with Micah is quite long. He was my first real boyfriend when I was 14. Even tho that was...um...17 years ago, we're still really good friends. However, he never seemed to get over me. I went to one college, he went to another/worked/got married & divorced/had kids, but he admitted later that "I was the one who got away". Awww...I'm spechul! :P. But, he lives there and I live here and I found the mate that I'm compatible with out here. It's just the way life goes, ya know? Anyway, he uncomfortably told me that he's getting married to a chick at the end of the month who he's known for 2 months. Um....okay? I figure if he's happy and he really thinks it'll work, yay for him! But he added, "Well, I let you slip away, so I had to find someone else", which a: wierds me out, b: is an attempt to make me feel guilty for going a different path and c: pisses me off because why the fuck is that *my* fault? He also gruffly indicated he was making no time to see me while I was in towne. So, my hope is that he'll be happy *and* eventually stop being pissed off at me. I heart him to death, but I suppose I can only leave him be until he's ready to talk to me again.

I got home from the Heorot around 8pm and just stuck around my mom's house the rest of the night. I did a load of laundry (because all of the clothes I had been wearing smelled like smoke because you can still smoke everywhere in Muncie) and watched some TV. But that's also when I pissed my mom off for standing up for myself. Because she is un-informed, she seems to think that the whole MRSA thing and me being sick for 7 months last year is my fault and could have been avoided. Well, I'm the cleanest person I know and there's no way this could have been avoided. Plain and simple, I was misdiagnosed. That is *no* fault of my own. Anyway, so my mom says that all of that happened because I don't eat right, I don't take care of myself, and I don't eat organic everything. Now, this is complete bullshit. Altho I don't eat organic everything because I like to pay all of my other bills and have a life, I *do* take care of myself. I *do* eat pretty well. I haven't even been sick (aside from one 2-day cold) since the MRSA thing was finally properly diagnosed and taken care of! Aside from the partying that I do (which isn't that much to begin with), I'm a pretty good girl. And I don't fucking appreciate her judging me when she doesn't even know *how* I live my life! She refuses to come visit...how the hell *would* she know? So, I politely told her that yes I take my vitamins, yes even tho I don't eat all organic food, I eat well, and that I am doing everything I can in my power to get my system back to the way it should be. But because I was on so many antibiotics for so long, that it is going to take *at least* a year, maybe two to get that accomplished. There's not a damn thing I can do about it except to take care of myself like I have been doing. Well, this wasn't satisfactory for her, so she got mad about it and basically stopped talking to me for the evening. I just looked at Dale and said, "She'll get over it". I did nothing wrong. She got mad over something that doesn't even exist! Is it any wonder the woman stresses me out and I can't deal with her? I needed my Xanax a few times during the 4 days that I was there just to keep my wits about me. I ended up calling one of my friends here in CA just to get a little Missy-Sanity back. Josh was hanging out with JoeJoe, and I needed to talk to someone whom I could relate to. Anyway, after that mom 'went to bed' and Dale and I shot the shit for a little while longer, and then he went to bed and I stayed up and spoiled her cats some more and watched some TV and went to bed again around 1am.

I woke up at about 11:30a on Saturday. My plan was to go see my dad's mom, spend the rest of the afternoon with my mom, and then go have dinner with Smooty. Well, mom ended up ditching me because she was still pissed off about nothing, so I hung out with my great aunt and grandmother for a few hours, and then went and hung out at the mall/Smooty's work (her company's office is in the mall) for a little while. I totally miss her. We went to dinner at a Chinese place in Carmel, and then I was back at my mom's around 9p. Smooty lives with an alcoholic, so she doesn't drink. If you're not out drinking, there's no reason to stay out late! :P. There was an option to go drive around Carmel and see all the growth that has taken place, but I have no inclination to do so. I don't want to see the towne I grew up in the way it is now....it's nothing like it used to be, and I want to remember it the way it was. It's the same reason I won't go out to where I grew up in the boonies. There are houses and schools everywhere around there now. Gone are the corn fields, deer, and quietness. Why would I want to go see how they ruined my childhood neighborhood (where a block was 4 square miles)?

I got back to mom's around 9p and watched 'Wild Wild West' on *VHS* (it's Indiana...gimme break), packed, and spoiled her cats some more. I couldn't bear to watch any more live television *shudder*. Mom and Dale were gone line dancing and came in around midnight, even tho she said they'd be home at 10. Just another passive aggressive action to show me she was still pissed at me. Every year for xmas or her birthday, I always get my mom a teddy bear made at the Teddy Bear Workshop. I didn't get her one for Xmas this past year because we weren't speaking. Since Smooty works in a mall where they have one, I was able to get one made while I was there. When mom got home, I gave the newly made bear to her. His name is Busterella. She liked him just fine! Mom and Dale were hungry, so we had bacon & eggs at 1am and then we all went to bed.

I got up at 10:30a yesterday morning, took a shower, packed, and put my mom's living room back in order (put the sofa bed away, washed sheets and towels, etc). We had breakfast, and then mom and Dale dropped me off at the airport around 1:45p. My flight didn't leave for another 2 hours, but I was happy to be by myself away from the stress of my mom.

My mom picked a really bad funeral home to get my Mammaw's stuff done. It took 3 fucking weeks to get the damn obituary printed in the paper and when they finally did, they included no information which they should have because mom gave it to them. And I'm not sure why it takes 3 weeks to creamate someone, but the ashes haven't been returned to the funeral home yet. I understand when there are a lot of deaths at once, things can pile up, but 3 weeks? *shrug*. I called the director myself and arranged to have the ashes sent to me when they come in later this week. I even sent a formal request by fax! I think I'm planning to spread them in Yosemite, and I'm looking to do it maybe either the first or 2nd weekend in April.

I arrived home around 9:30p last night without incident. Boy, I'm sure glad to be back in California. Things are green, thing are blooming, the weather is nice, and it's *not* Indiana. And once again, I am 2500 miles away from my mother.

And once I have the ashes in my possession, I will be going back to not really speaking to my mom again. I just can't handle her and her bullshit. She just stresses me out too much. I can't handle her negativity. And there's no way I'm going to keep a healthy supply of Xanax (which I don't even like to take in the first place) around just so I can deal with her shit when she calls. No thanks.

And, I'm pretty much done with Indiana also. All of the people who I care about out there are healthy and able and they can get on a plane and come visit me if they want to. In the 6.5 years since I've moved out there (with the exceptions being Smooty in 2002 and my dad 3 times), if I've wanted to see anyone, I've had to go out there. Now, this was fine when Mammaw was still alive, because she couldn't get on a plane and I *had* to go out there, but now that she's gone, I'm not doing that anymore. No longer are things going to be one-sided. At least, not if I can help it. Not only that, but I felt *extremely* out of place the entire time I was there. Sure, I have nothing in common with my mom (that's been true since 1994), but this time around I didn't have anything in common with *anyone*. What I thought, what I ate, what I watch on TV....even using a computer! How the hell is it that people don't check their email everyday or have a computer at home? How do these people keep in touch with what is going on in the world? Oh that's right, they don't. And I just can't handle that.

I'm pretty pissed/stressed out about having to deal with all of that shit for 4 days, but I have to remind myself that I'm back home now where things are 'normal' (for being in the Bay Area, anyway!), and I just need to chill and get back to my life.

I really *am* glad to be back. I missed my boyfriend, my kids, and my friends.

1. Do you believe in reincarnation?
Yep. I have my next 2-3 lifetimes planned out already.

2. Do you own any anime figures?
Nope. Anime was never quite my thing.

3. Are you one of the fanfic writers over at www.fanfiction.net?
Never heard of it.

4. Do you review stories which are posted in www.fanfiction.net?
See #3

5. Are you looking forward to seeing the third Spider-Man film?
I don't really care. The first movie was good. The second movie was more of the same. I'm sure the third won't be any more impressive. I'll wait for it to come out on DVD.

6. Are you looking forward to seeing the Fantastic Four sequel?
I never saw the first one.

7. Do you like "Deal or No Deal"?
I've never watched it. I don't like that kind of television. And seeing Howie Mandel doing such a lame gig is kind of dissapointing.

8. Are you a television watcher?
Not really. I watch the stray science show or FoodTV show here and there but other than that, the only shows I watch are 'Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip' and 'Battlestar Galactica'.

9. Do you write letters to people?
No. That's what email is for.

1. In general, are you happy with life? Do you consider yourself a happy person? Why/why not?
Yeah, I am. Took me a long time to get there, and life throws curve balls at me when it thinks I'm not paying attention, but I'm happy overall. Do I consider myself a happy person? I consider myself grounded. Sometimes I forget things are good, but I try to stay on the positive side of things.

2. What is happiness, anyway?
I think every person has their own definition of happiness. What's happy for me may not be happy for another person. As long as no major bullshit is going on, that's what happiness is for me. Things going fairly smoothly.

3. What do you think happiness (as a concept) is based on? Do you think it's genetic?
I think that there are some people who think that if they are not happy, life is not worth living. Again, happiness is relative in my opinion. I think a person's views on happiness depends largely on their environment growing up...what was taught to them as being happy. Which is why there are so many definitions of the word.

So, I'm going home to Indiana tomorrow (Thursday) and I'll return home Sunday evening. I will not have access to any computers (I don't think, anyway...at least none that I know of), so I will not be able to check my email. If you need to get ahold of me or even just want to say hi, please give me a call on my cell!

I really do. I mean, it's fun sometimes, but it always stresses me out and then I get shitty about everything like I did yesterday. Too many things to do to prepare for it. Gotta clean the house, gotta pack, gotta remember to pack everything, gotta remember what you can and can't bring due to restrictions, blahblahblah. It just puts me in a mood.

But, I'm just trying to remember that even tho I'm traveling 2500 miles, I'm only there for 2.5 days and then I can come home and things will be semi-normal again.

In the meantime, I just need to chill.

So, unlike most people, I'm not afraid to open my mouth and say something to someone who wrongs me in public. I had to go to Longs and get Josh bubble wrap because he needs it to wrap the Roomba in to send it back to them. I'm quite pissed off at him about this because he was supposed to send it back *last* week. But, I want my new vacuum, and so I had to take charge because if I didn't, it would never get done.

So, I go to Longs, get my bubble wrap, and proceed to stand in line. 3 lanes, 5 deep, slow cashiers. Some guy opens up on lane 4, and 4 of us slide over. All of a sudden, this Walnut Creek housewife with her perfect hair and make-up in her tennis clothes and hat cuts in front of all of us....with a box of Rogaine. So, I confront her and ask her why she felt the need to cut in front of all of us. "Well, the lady at checkstand 1 said I could". Excuse me? Maybe if there weren't 4 other people already in line, but there were. I kept confronting her, asking her why she felt she was special. She kept up about how the checker lady said it was okay. So then I asked, "Do you get your way all of the time?"...after a slight headshake I said, "Well, it's a good thing you're getting your way today!". What I *should* have said was, "Well, it's a good thing you're getting your way today because the only other thing I can do is move you out of my way, and I don't want to go to jail", but it didn't come to me fast enough :P. And then on her way out of the line, she stood there for 15 sec said then, "Ciao!", to which my reply was, "Would you please move out of the way?"

The guy in back of me said "Well, thanks for the laugh!". Sure, because I'm here for everybody's entertainment :P. But what else was I supposed to do?

It's probly best to stay under radar for the rest of the day. Otherwise, I might do something bad.

Update: So last night, there was a UPS slip that had our apartment # (plus someone elses) on it, so I asked Josh to call UPS and see what was up. He didn't tell me what happened with it. When I got back from Longs, he IM'd me that the package was indeed for us and it was the new Roomba that they weren't supposed to send us until they got the old one back, which was why I was mad at him in the first place :P. My only reply was, "I don't know weather to laugh or cry". *shakes head*

Update 2: Stupid: not doing something your girlfriend asked you to do 2 weeks ago. After she reminded you at least twice. Even worse: coming home 2 hours late so you can have a beer with your buddy even tho you should be at home being extra nice to your girlfriend because you're already in trouble...*especially* since she's going to be gone for 4 days somewhere she doesn't even want to be.

Pack
-3 boxers - done
-2 black sox - done
-1 wool sox - done
-2 t-shirts - done
-1 thermal shirt - done
-1 long sleeved shirt - done
- nightgown - done
-comfy pants - done
-Heorot hoodie - done
-contacts case - done
-saline solution - done
-floss/sonicare - done
-bite plane / 3 denture cleaner thingies - done
-olay - done
-gel - done
-bactroban - done
-book - done
-iPo - done
-iPo charger - done
-gloves and scarf - done

Need to:
-go to the bank and get cash - done
-take iPo home and take off crappy music and put better stuff on (replace Silversound Pickups album w/ non-glitchy copy) - done
-go to Longs - done
-get gas for car - done

So on Sunday, Josh and I started doing vodka shots, and I did a few too many :P. Yesterday, I was nursing a hangover and I went to bed around 9pm. So, 10.5 hours of sleep was good, but I'm still kinda tired today. I talked to my dad last night, and I think we're going to go to The Heorot on Friday for pizza and beer. Yay! Cheap frozen nummy pizza and good beer....yum yum!

'Serene' by Throwing Muses

Sun bakes
The window makes
The sheets hot and wet
At night they're cold and blue
Why do I like you?
'Cause I do
Why do I like you?
'Cause I'd kill to be you

Sweet nothing
Sweet dreams
Serene
Sweet nothing
Sweet Dreams
Serene

Dancing with scissors
Our bones full of wishes
We wait for our plans to come true
Why do I like you?
'Cause I do
Why do I like you?
'Cause I'd kill to be you

Sweet nothing
Sweet dreams
Serene
Sweet nothing
Sweet dreams
Serene

We fill each other's arms
You wanna wish higher
You wanna live higher
Lose control

If you're in the ballpark
Then you can play the game
You know you know the rules
Why do I like you?
'Cause I do
I like you
'Cause I'm thrilled to be here

1. What's the most unusual hobby you have? How did you get started with it?
This is a repeat question from a couple of weeks ago. No need to repeat myself.

2. How many different kinds of music do you listen to? Name a few favorites, if you please.
Lots, anymore. Rock, metal, electronic, jazz, blues....whatever floats my boat.

3. Do you take advantage of the outdoor areas where you live? What's your favorite thing to do outside? What's your favorite local bird?
I don't go outside as much as I could/should. I do if people suggest it, tho. There are lots of places here in the Bay Area to hike/walk around/take in the scenery. I'm not really a bird person. I do miss seeing Cardinals all of the time.

4 Children: Do you have any?
No way. I leave that headache to other people.

5. What is your favorite part of spring?
I love Contra Costa county in the spring. Everything is really green.

I'm pretty 'meh' today. I have no real good reason to be, I just am.

We had a house full of people last night to watch the Sharks away game. The Ducks spanked the Sharks pretty thuroughly. After that, we managed to play Guitar Hero for like 5 hours. I have no clue where the night went :P. After everyone was thuroughly drunk, we kicked everyone out around 2a so we could go to bed.

I went to bed around 2:30a and woke up around noon. Josh and I went and saw 2 place near by. My 'we gotta move by' date is May, so we have some time to find what we really want. It's good to see places to compare to.

I've spent the rest of the afternoon playing w0w and listening to music. I came across a re-release of The Posies first album 'Failure', which is probly my favorite Posies album. It was originally released in 1986, and the production value was *horrible*. It sounds like they remastered it, which helps it a *lot*. After that, I listened to a 'best of' album from The Police.

I'm gonna go take a shower, and then I've got Munchkin Duty tonight. Not that I'm really in the mood, but I haven't seen them in awhile, and I miss them.

Tomorrow, I plan on not doing a damn thing. I'm not leaving the house. I am debating on weather or not I will get dressed. And *maybe* if I'm feeling saucy, I may do laundry :P.

I have no reason to be, but I'm horribly anxious today. I can't concentrate on anything. My attention span is about 10 seconds long.

Come on me, snap out of it!

1.Are you mindful about getting tested for STDs/HIV at least semi-regularly? Why/why not?
Yes, I'm mindful. I like sex *way too much* to get careless. Last year when they didn't know what was wrong with me, they tested me for everything under the sun (HIV and STD tests included), so I know I'm clean. I think it's very important (single or married) to make sure you don't have anything. Life's too short to have to deal with stupid shit that could have been avoided. I say unless you plan never to have sex again, you should be tested every so often. It's just a smart thing to do.

2. Do you get regular (or at least semi-regular) checkups to make sure everything is working okay? Does it matter to you? Why/why not?
Since the whole MRSA thing, I listen to my body even more than usual, so I know when things aren't working properly. I also have a doctor who has my complete medical history in writing from the past year, so he knows what's going on as well. While I don't believe yearly physicals are necessary, it's good to be checked out by a doctor once in awhile just to make sure everything is going as smoothly as you think it is. For us chickies (depending on our age) we need to go every 1-3 years anyway. I'm usually pretty healthy, but I also listen to my body. I know when it's not happy. I've learned not to ignore it. And after all the crap that went on with it last year, I'm fortunate to be healthy once again.

3. Do you believe in preventative medicine (Pap tests for the girls, colonoscopies, physicals, etc)? Why/why not?
Totally. I think chickie tests (no matter how uncomfortable they are) are totally important. Survival rates are greater if you catch things early. Same for guys. And as you get older, you just have to make sure things are working so you can grow old gracefully. It's just kinda the way it is. Getting old is fun! :P