This is an official record:

If anything happens to me where I cannot make a decision about my life, health, and or fate, Josh Kirkpatrick may speak for me. If Josh is not around, my sister Nell can speak for me. If she is not around, my dad Brian can speak for me. Josh has first rights on any property belonging to me (my car, computer, music, etc). Also, if anything happens to me, Squeeek, z0rg, and any other pets I may have will go to him for care.

And for gods sake, if it's 'pull the plug or keep her alive by machine', pull the plug! I don't want to be a vegetable for the rest of my life. Do not resuscitate!

Cremate my ass! And please let my ashes wash out to sea with the tide at 'my cove' in Duncan's Landing just north of Bodega Bay, CA on Hwy 1.

Written this 3rd day of May, 2006 at 3:01pm.
Updated 7/31/07 at 3:04pm.
Updated 8/31/07 at 4:17pm.

Yesterday, I had my notary renewal class in Oakland. I took a cab there from my house because I did not want to deal with trying to park, blahblahblah. I got there okay, got thru the class, and then it was time for the test. The proctors were all old ppl in their 70s, and they took an extremely long time to check in and administer the test. It was supposed to start at 4:30. Instead, it started at 5. I got out of there about 5:20 and called a cab to take me home. 20 minutes later, I called to find out where they were. Apparently, my cabbie picked up another fare. When they went to call me another cab, no one responded....this meant I had no ride home. The girl on the fone (at least she was nice) basically told me I was fuct. My only choice was to walk up Oak St. to Lake Merritt BART and take it to MacArthur and then either walk or take a cab. Grrr! So, I get to the station and missed the train by 2 mins. Grrrrrr again! I catch the next train 13 minutes later, finally get to MacArthur, and took a cab to the bar near Whit & Steph's place. I had a drink, then went and fed, watered, cleaned out the box, and hung out with their kitties for awhile.

By this time, it was 7:30p and I was tired and hungry and my blood sugar was falling. I decided that I wanted Raj, so I put on a pot of brown rice in the rice cooker and went to call to place my order. I tried for *20* minutes to get ahold of these people. Either the line was busy or they weren't answering their phones. I was tired and didn't want to walk down there, but did anyway because I *really* wanted Raj for dinner. I got there and told them how extremely unhappy I was that they were not answering their phones, and they didn't care. Oh very fucking thx, jerks! I ordered my food, verbally told them again how unhappy I was, and then went to the Scary House next door to wait for my food. I was afraid I might blow my stack if I waited in the restaurant. I finally got my damn food and went home and ate. And tho the experience up to getting the food sucked, the food itself was wonderful as usual and I am now in possession of yummy leftovers.

It's been a nice week to myself, but now I am ready to have company again. And sleeping without Josh in the same room sucks. I've been sleeping pretty well, but keep waking up 2 and 3 times during the night, which I hate. It's wierd...I'm lonely, but I'm not. Oh well. It's Friday! And I have another 3 day weekend!

I miss my friends :/

And most importantly, my boyfriend! *whine* Can BM be over now plz? I selfishly want my boys and my friends to come home. It was fun for 6 days, and now I want my life to go back to nomal, vrythx. Dammit :P

The weekend will be productive, and then Monday night (late), Josh'll come home.

And then life will go back to normal :P

1. When you die, do you want to be burried in the ground or cremated? (If cremated, what do you want done with your ashes?) Why?
Eh, don't take up space in the ground for me. Burn me to a crisp! At the moment, I think I'd like for my ashes to be washed out to sea with the tide at 'my cove' in Bodega Bay (the place I'd go the most when I went to the ocean in Sonoma County). I can't remember the name of the place atm, but Brent and Josh know where it is.

2. Do you believe in life after death, or do you believe that when you die you are dead? Why?
Oh sure. I have my next three lifetimes planned out. Life's too short to have just one life.

3. If something happens to you, do you have a directive of any kind somewhere that says what should happen to you? If so, what does it say? If not, do you ever think about doing one?
Yeah, I have one on my Bio page. Tho I'm thinking maybe I should update it and make it a bit more specific. At any rate, yes, I have one. And I assume it's legal and valid because when I was in the hospital last year, they took it.

1. When you die, do you want to be burried in the ground or cremated? (If cremated, what do you want done with your ashes?) Why?

3. If something happens to you, do you have a directive of any kind somewhere that says what should happen to you? If so, what does it say? If not, do you ever think about doing one?

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I've been a little morbid this week. I dunno if it's because I'm all alone left with my thoughts or maybe it's cause I've been thinking about my Mammaw lately. Or maybe 'Dead Man' made me think about death also. I dunno. But tomorrow's 3x Thursday questions are kinda morbid.

However, *I* am okay! Things have been fairly mellow this week so far, and it's been nice. I think I have a small bug from traveling this weekend, but I have been taking it easy. I've been taking my 'don't get sick' vitamins, eating better, and sleeping 8-9 hours a night. And last night was the 2nd night in a row without sleeping meds! Yay! I came home from work and had a bath, cooked turkey cutlets and couscous, and watched Some Like It Hot. It was a pretty bad movie, but it was supposed to be! After that, I played GH for half an hour and then went to bed.

Tonight, I think I'm gonna leave work early and go hang out with Steph & Whit's kitties and then go home and chill out again tonight. Tomorrow, I don't have to go to work, but instead to a class to renew my notary license. It's only 3 miles from my house, so I'll take a cab. I don't have anything going on afterwards, so it'll probly end up another relaxing evening. Friday night, I think I'm hanging out with Hickory. Saturday, I *have* to get my filthy car washed, and then I'm going to hang out with some of the tkosters. I also may go to a play that night, but I dunno yet. Sunday, I'm sleeping in, and then Schreck is having a Labor Day party, which should be cool. Monday will consist of not a damn thing, and then it's back to work on Tuesday. I think Josh is coming home Monday night some time.

Anyway, that's it for me. I should probly go get some work done :P

Things going on in the news that make me go, "Eh?":

1. Idaho Senator Larry Craig being busted for...*something*: I *still* don't know what the hell is going on with this situation. He pleaded guilty to something that he supposedly didn't do (I don't know what a 'lewd act in a man's bathroom' means in English, nor do I understand how touching another man's shoe in the next stall qualifies either, but whatever), then says "Oh wait, maybe I shouldn't have pleaded guilty". Then he goes on TV and says "I'm not gay!", like that's supposed to have some positive affect on the situation. Now everyone's calling for his resignation because if he goes away, then so does the situation. Does anyone else think maybe we're looking at this situation the *wrong* way? Or maybe, being wrong by looking at the situation at *all*? Just a thought.

2. The poverty rate going down by 0.3%: I don't understand why this is big news *or* good news. So while people make a little more over the poverty rate, they still can't really afford to live. I'm sure the $0.25 raise in the minimum wage helped a lot. And we'll just ingore the fact that the number of people uninsured in this country has risen to new heights. I don't see the good in this news. Can someone please explain it to me?

3. The Man burning early: Some idiot thought it would be cute to set The Man on fire early at Burning Man this year. He got busted, and they're rebuilding The Man. They're a resourceful bunch! But what kind of moron would do such a thing? Doesn't it go against the spirit of the event?

4: Racial tensions in Walnut Creek, CA (at night...when all of the yuppies are in bed): So, I frequent a certain bar in WC for lunch about once a week. I'm a sucker for their food. During the day, the clientele are working people eating lunch, and then your crowd of 'regulars' who consist of men in their 60s and 70s who have been coming to the bar for lunch and drinks for 30 years. However at night, it's a vastly different scene. It's filled with 20-somethings buying too-expensive drinks, not caring that they're killing themselves *or* the fact that the liquor their drinking is crap (hence the shitty selection for those of us who drink decent alcohol). Apparently, the fights and police calls in and around the bar scene have been on the rise lately. Now, the owner of the particular place I eat at is a very staunch, conservative Republican individual. A very nice person, but his opinions are a little 'different' than mine. He claims that the rise in the scuffs correleates to the race, dress, and music of the people involved in these confretations. He is of the opinion that the bars in WC should ban hip-hop music to keep out the rif-raff. He also believes that banning white t-shirts (eh?), jersey's, and not wearing pants on the ass will (in effect, enforcing a dress code) also keep such undesirables out. Problem solved, right?

He couldn't understand why I thought there's no way that's going to work. Putting general labels on people like that not only doesn't fix the problem, but it only divides us as humans even more. You can't judge me by my appearance. If you did, you might think I was a goody two shoes who liked pop music and loved to shop. But, I'm not. I like to drink once in awhile. I listen to heavy metal music (in addition to 80s new-wave, electronica, and triphop). I party a little. I play video games. I like to drive fast. And I hate to shop. The fundamental problem is something happened to our morals somewhere. And it seems as if we forgot to instill in our kids that you don't treat your fellow humans like shit, no matter *who* they are. We forgot somewhere that in the end, we're all equal. That in the end, we're all after the same exact thing. A common goal. I think we just need to remember it and charge towards it.

So, Steph & Whit are going to Burning Man on Wednesday and asked me if I could feed/water/litterbox/play with their 3 cats while they're gone. Since they live like 4 blocks from my house, it's no big deal. I walked over there around 6p yesterday and Steph was running late, so I went to the corner bar for a drink. On the way there, I got to see the aftermath of an accident, which was fun. Steph came and got me a few mins later and she showed me where everything was, and I left for home around 7.

On the way back, the fone rang and it was M, wanting to watch a movie. He arrived around 8:30p and we watched Dead Man. Now, I had no idea what we were watching. I gave M access to my netflix account and he's got his own queue, so the movies just show up at my place and I never look at them until I pop them in the player. So, I was pleasantly surprised when I saw Mr.Depp's cute face on the screen! It was a good flick. Dark, but good.

I was pretty content in general when the movie ended. M went home and I went to bed. I somehow reopened my tear (oh fun...mental reminder: indian spices are bad for these types of conditions), so I'm detoxing my body in order to help facilitate the healing. Almost no alcohol, sugar, or milk. Trying to get myself off my sleeping meds too. And I was so content after the movie that I just went to sleep. And I slept well! I woke up a few times cause I'm not used to sleeping alone in the house, but I went right back to sleep.

Things are fairly quiet at work this week, and so I think it's going to be a generally mellow week. I need to do laundry at some point, but since Whit & Steph live right across the street from the laundry mat, I'll just put clothes in while I'm over there doing kitty stuff between Wednesday and Monday. I have one more Netflix movie to watch, so maybe I'll watch that tonight.

Friday, I took the day off. I got ready, went to brunch with I.C., and then went to the airport to catch my flight to Burbank. I got there only about 15 mins late, got my rental car, and made my way to KP's sister's house in Thousand Oaks. Nice place. Nice towne. Since there were two munchkins around, we stayed home and just chilled out and caught up on the last 12 years. It was good times. And he's still cute! Always a good thing. I did however, develop a hated for the Disney show Hannah Montana. Good *god*, what an awful show. I get the morals and values they are trying to show kids, but come on! Even Kids Incorporated was better...by far. Anyway, yesterday, I got back to the airport, got some food, and finally got on the plane. I swear it was the longest 4 hours (airport to airport) in the entire world :P

I got home around 6p. I let Squeeek outside and then unpacked. I was ready to go to bed at 10p, but Squeeek had still not come home. I went to bed anyway, expecting to hear him crying at the back door. 12am came and went. So did 2am. Then 5am. With virutally no sleep because I was worrying about him. He's never *not* come home. And he's 10, so he's not quite as agile and quick as he used to be. When it was light enough, I put on a hoodie and walked around the block, keys clanking because he knows the sound, and went looking for a body. Hey, I had no sleep and my child who always comes home, didn't come home. What else was I supposed to think? Anyway, there was no sign of anything, so I went back home. And who was standing at the door, but one Squeeek Williams with a look of "I'm in sooooo much trouble". Fucking brat!! I yelled at him and gave him a talking-to for a few mins to make myself better, then I went to sleep.

I got up, had my coffee, and went to Longs and Safeway. Then I potted 3 plants, ate some food, and here I am. I think I picked up a small bug along my way home yesterday, and I'm not feeling too awful well at the moment. I'll be doing a lot of lying on the couch tonight. I gotta go to work tomorrow, but it's a quiet week, so I'm not worried.

But Squeeek is *so very* grounded! Damn brat.

1. Where you live, what kind of weather (or weather-related tragedy) do you fear the most?
Around here, we usually only look out for earthquakes. The weather itself is usually pretty good here.

2. What kind of weather do you MOST enjoy?
I love to wake up and the sun *not* be out. An overcast day makes me happy. And I love when it rains.

3. What kind of weather do you LEAST like to drive in?
Ice or snow or any combonation of the two.

4. What is the scariest weather-related experience you've had in your lifetime?
Can't remember any. I've been thru some serious thunderstorms, but that's about it.

5. Share a "weather picture" with us!
I don't take pictures of weather, sorry.

Last night, I came home and Josh made me a chocolate-mint martini. He left to go do BM prep, and I was going to make myself another drink when The Voice reared its head and told me to call I.C. I had no idea *why*, but that's what it said. So I did. It turned out to be a good thing! He somehow mis-planned his evening and stranded himself at werk...40 miles away :P So, I drove down and got him and took him back up to our neck of the woods. My reward was dinner at Pyramid in Berkeley, which wasn't too bad for once. I had never eaten at that particular place. By comparison, the one in Walnut Creek is substandard.

After that, I took him home and we shot the shit with his roomie, her bf, and a house guest that they have at the moment. I *wanted* to be asleep by 10, but was asleep by midnight instead. Oh well, it was worth it!

That damn Voice....I gotta be psychotic or somethin :P

Tonight, I'm hanging out with Josh because he's leaving for BM tomorrow and I won't see him again until 9/4. I gotta pack also for tomorrow's trip to L.A., but that won't take much time at all. And then next week, things will be quiet. And I will rejoice :P

1. On average, about how much sleep do you get in a night? Is it enough for you? Why/why not?
When I was in college, I used to sleep 4 or 5 hours a night and be just fine. Then I graduated and started working real jobs and found that I actually need 8 hours of sleep. So usually I get between 7 and 8. It does me well most of the time. I *make* the time for sleep. It's important!

2. Do you notice a difference in things when you don't get enough sleep for a period of time? What happens?
Totally. For 3 weeks, I was completely stressed out to the max. I wasn't getting even 7 hours of sleep steadily, and finally I got fried. I've slept 2 days in a row now, but I *definatly* need a third night of 8 hours or more. I don't recover quite as quickly as I used to.

3. Generally when you sleep, do you sleep well? Why/why not?
Yes, generally. For the past few months, I've relied heavily on my sleeping meds out of stress/habit, so actually *getting* good sleep hasn't been a problem. However, I'm thinkin it's time to get back to my natural sleep cycle, and that will take a little time. Gotta ween myself off the meds (I don't sleep well at *all* if I just stop cold turkey) onto melatonin, and then off that to natural sleep. I'm pretty sure it's a psychological thing for me.

1. On average, about how much sleep do you get in a night? Is it enough for you? Why/why not?

3. Generally when you sleep, do you sleep well? Why/why not?

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"Note that the dust and wind conditions this year are being described
variously as "the worst I've seen in my twelve years of coming",
"worse than Iraq" (as described by an Iraq veteran), and "granular
with dunes". Basically, take last year's one big whiteout that lasted
an hour, and it's like that more or less all the time right now.
BEFORE 45,000 people show up."

Haha....have fun, Hippies! While you're drowning in dust, I will be enjoying the comforts of modern day life. Electricity, internet, cable, tv, console games, a real shower, running water, a real bed, my kitties, truely clean clothes...Well, you get the idea! And while I'm basking in my comfort, I will think of yall (even tho everyone will most definatly still have a good time), sucking in/being covered in (more than usual) dust and sand for a week. Have fun! :P

Teh Missy = *so* not BM material

I came home from work last night around 6, and Josh and I went and did laundry. Admittedly, I was in a crappy mood because I was so fucking tired but, we got thru it! We had sushi for dinner, folded laundry, and came home. I was asleep by 10p and woke up at 7:30a this morning. And even tho I feel a *lot* better today, I think I need another night of good sleep, so I'm going to shoot for an early bed time again tonight. I don't think anyone will be around this evening, so it gives me a good excuse to stay home.

Anyway, yay for sleep!

So, I'm horribly exhausted today, but things have been fairly quiet. I've had a great deal of work stress lately, but things have worked out. My admin has decided to stay and play with us, and I am now reporting directly to my boss instead of someone else. Now, I just need to de-stress and get some goddamn sleep.

Poppies....poppies will put them to sleeeeeep......

Happy Boofday to my sister Nell! She's a quarter of a century old today!

It warmed up slightly in the Bay Area and when it does that, my house heats up just enough to make me not sleep well. And I haven't slept well 2 days in a row now. It probly didn't help that I didn't get to bed until 1am last night either.

Tonight will consist of laundry and then sleep. At an early time. Because I'm tired. Exhausted. Emotionally so. In partly a *good* way, but exhausted nonetheless.

Can has nap now please?

Things have been 'teh suck' for me since last week, and tho they haven't gotten worse, they haven't gotten better either. I've got a certain situation that I can't seem to fix. I've gotten guidance from the people that are close to me, but now I'm just waiting to see how things shake out. But as a result, my mind was preoccupied all weekend and I don't really feel I had a weekend, per se. I'm still a pretty butthurt panda about this situation.

Saturday, we went to see Avenue Q in San Francisco. It was awsome! Tho, I feel the rendition they did of 'The Internet Is For Porn' sucked ass, but the rest of the play was cool. Afterwards, Josh left for Concord to do BM stuff, and I went to dinner with the rest of the tkost gang. After that, I came home and sulked the rest of the evening. "I."came out and we talked about the situation that is bothering me for a bit, then he went home and I went to bed.

I woke up around noon yesterday and was up long enough to decided I needed a nap at 3:30p :P. I got up an hour later and took a shower, and then went to a different sushi place than I normally go to. It was totally teh suck. I spent the rest of the evening watching bad TV. Josh and I hung out for a bit after he got home from doing more BM stuff, and then we went to bed around midnight.

I'm hoping today will be a better day. Tonight should be relaxing as well. Now, if I can just make it to Friday, we'll be in business!

1. How many desktop computers in your home?
I have one, there's one in the livingroom, and Josh has 2.

2. How many laptops?
Josh has an old clunker he keeps around.

3. What kind of internet service do you have?
cable.

4. Do you tend to use more than one email account regularly?
I use my personal email account and then a 'general' account for everything else (bills, things I buy from websites, etc).

5. Do you use email as a main source for communicating to your family and friends?
Yep. Cept for my mom who refuses to use a computer, so I don't talk to her much.

6. What kind of computer monitor do you own?
We've gone all LCD in our house. Even our TV is an LCD monitor (a really big one :P). I think Josh keeps a CRT around for emergencies, but we don't use it on a regular basis.

A lot. A *big* lot.

Something will happen soon, I just don't know what it is yet.

However, tomorrow is Friday, so it can't all be bad.

Josh went to do BM stuff for the night and at about the same time he left, M called and wanted for me to come over and watch a movie. I was already drinking martini's, so I bribed him with the upmost tastiest Indian food in the land, so he came over here for a change and we watched Ghost Dog: The Way of the Samurai, which was actually a pretty damn good flick. I may have to see more Jim Jarmusch flicks in the future.

And now I'm slightly drunked and mostly cloudy-headed, and I'm going to bed. And I'm not going to dream of work or anything else...only cute boys and kitties.

1. Would you consider yourself observant when it comes to people and their behavior? How so/how not?
Yeah, to a fault almost. I see how a person reacts to something and then act or say accordingly...most of the time, anyway. I see things most people don't see. From the "i'm not thinking and I bet you're not watching" picking of the nose, or the look on someone's face that they want to say something at least a little meaningful but can't for whatever reason. Missy-ficiency isn't always such a great gift to have.

2. What about when it comes to conflict with people? Can you tell by the way they are acting how to treat them to calm them down, make the situation better, etc? Do you have a 'sense' about these things at all?
I can usually figure out how someone is reacting. Sometimes I make things better, sometimes I make things worse. Really, it depends on how *I'm" reacting. I have a sense, but sometimes I don't listen to it. It usually gets me into trouble when I *don't* listen to it.

3. Do you observe the world today as you did say, 10 years ago? How so/how not?
Absolutely not. I didn't see things then near the clarity that I see them now. I *still* don't see them all that clear, but it's better than it was 10 years ago.

1. Would you consider yourself observant when it comes to people and their behavior? How so/how not?

3. Do you observe the world today as you did say, 10 years ago? How so/how not?

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So, due to this whole bullshit Internet Radio Equality Act bill, my Live 365 rates are going up substantially. Not only is this unfair to corporations like Live365 who play by the rules, but it fucks with listeners like myself who have *paid* for such a service for years and continue to do so. Mostly it stems from the unwillingness of organizations like the RIAA to work with listeners and broadcasters, but also from the non-understandingness of these idiot politicians who come up with such stupid-assed bills. You're fucking me...your constituant, you assholes! And you want me to vote for you next time? Not a chance.

A year's subscription is going from $47 a year to $71. And for someone who's been a customer of Live365's for at least 2.5 years, it's a pretty nasty sting. However, after 2 days of trying, I finally got ahold of someone at their corporate office to help me out. I was able to get a year's contract at the old rate, so that's good. Yes, I'll have to pay more next year, but at least I don't have to worry about it for awhile.

There's going to be a breaking point eventually. I am just waiting to see how it manifests itself. One way or another, I see the music industry as a whole crumbled to the ground, broken. It's not the listener's fault. It's not the artist's fault. I believe this falls onto the shoulders of the Powers of the music industry. The ones who fuck the artists *and* the listeners to make a buck. They refuse to compromise with changing technology and times, and it's only a matter of time before it kills them. It may take awhile, but I predict it will happen. You were wrong, Gene. It's not us the listeners that killed the music industry. You are partially to blame, sir. I get you're an old-school guy, but it's people like you, unwilling to submit to compromise and change that are making this problem so bad.

I only hope that one day, things will be good again, and we won't have to fight so hard to get good music at affordable prices in the medium in which we want it. A girl can dream.

Is anybody out there today?

I'm kinda feeling alone in the world at the moment...

In light of the mostly crappy couple of days I've had, I had a nice night last night. I came home and talked to Josh for awhile, made a stop at Kitty's to have a drink (where I totally forgot to leave Stefi a tip because my brain was somewhere else and I am a big dork), and then made my way over to M's house for hottub...and scotch...a lot of scotch. We had marinated greenbeans & rice for dinner while I drank a rather large glass of Balvenie. Feeling good, it was tubbin time! We soaked in the tub for awhile, then it was time for me to go home and go to sleep.

This evening, I have munchkin duty! Yay! I need to be out of my house anyway for a little while, so it works out. Depending on when Mom comes home, I think I need to take them to dinner and then take #2 to play practice. I like doing that kinda thing, so it should be fun!

So, I'm trying out this keyboard out for my boss, who says she's been having trouble with it. Personally, I think her machine is fuct and she needs a new one. I haven't had any problems yet, but we'll see!

Saturday, my friend Whit called me. Him and Steph were trying to get rid of 2 kittens. They found a lady who would take them both together. And come to find out, she's the fiance of the bass player for Testament! They immediately thought of me and called me. Afterall, I *am* the metal baby of the bunch!

Nice to be thought of :)

Fill in the following blanks, to make a compound word:

(Here's where I make up my own rules)

1. GROUNDbreaking
2. FIREhouse
3. HOUSEfire
4. OVERthere
5. SUNspot
6. UNDERneath
7. OUTside
8. SOMEwhere

Friday night, I hung out with I. We went to dinner, and then we drank scotch and watched Spaceballs, and everything was good with the universe. Because afterall, evil will always triumph because good is dumb!

Saturday, I putzed around the house, then popped next door to Buster's place and we watched 'Ocean's 13'. It wasn't half as bad as the 2nd one! After that, I putzed around some more at home, took a shower, and made my way to Concord where Josh was doing BM prep work. We went to a birthday party for his friend Christine. I came home around 9, and Josh showed up a little later. We started talking, and ended up getting into a conversation which put me in the doghouse *bigtime*. Yesterday, things were no better, and so while Josh was out doing BM prep work again, I went OCD on my house, cleaning it from top to bottom. I spent the rest of the afternoon reading Harry Potter and watching a couple of episodes of Monk. Squeeek and I had baked salmon for dinner, and then Josh showed up around 9. Drunk. And then he drank some more and handed *me* a shot. Uh oh :P. We'll get thru this. We always do.

In the meantime, I'm keeping my mouth shut and am just going to try and blink my way thru the day. Cept for the fact that those idiots at the bakery across the street have grounds in their coffee this morning. I called over there and asked them to make new coffee so I could come get a new cup. *rolls eyes*. New people...watcha gonna do?

Yesterday, I realized I had lost my cell fone. I thought I had left it over at the place where I had done laundry. Nope. Come to find out, it was lost in my car! So, I have my fone back! Yay! And yay for not having to buy a new fone! But now I kinda want a new fone...must...resist! New bed first!

My webhosting place is famous for doing upgrades, fucking them up, and then not telling anyone that they did upgrades *or* fucked it up. It's very irritating. Yesterday, my email was down 3/4 of the day. It was down again this morning as well. Of all people, I understand the trials and tribulations of server upgrades, but damn. It seemed kinda obvious that no one actually bothered to read the readme file. *shakes head*. I love my webhosting place, but when they fuck up, they fuck up good.

Yesterday evening ended up being rather clusterfucked, and my Costco trip ended up being a no-go. We're shooting for tonight tho. Tomorrow is Movie Night. Saturday, I'm sleeping and maybe going to a birthday party. Sunday, I'm sleeping and then I'm supposed to help Josh's mommy organize her kitchen. w00h00, a perfect job for the OCD girl! Tuesday I may have Munchkin Duty. And then next Saturday, we're going to go see Avenue Q! That should be fun.

Sorry for the randomness. It's Day 5 and I'm *still* not recovered from the weekend.

What are you thinking about this week? List 3 things and go into detail. They can be whatever you want to talk about!

1. Music and life changing experiences: Most every time I go to a party (campout, rave, etc) and really get into it, it changes my life in some way. This past weekend was one of those life-changing experiences for me. And usually when that happens, I get into some new form of music that I would have not otherwise gotten into. This time it's glitch, and on the other side of things, down-tempo in the form of one Dr.Toast. Ah, I'm glad I finally stopped being so square about my musical tastes!

3. People are fragile: The more I experience life, the more I observe and realize just how fragile people really are. They don't want to be, and they try their best to not show it, but I tend to see thru these things. I realized this weekend that a friend of mine was much more fragile than I realized. That even tho they do their best to keep everyone at arms length, they only want the opposite. And tho I'm not sure what I can do for them, I suppose the only thing I *can* do is be there for them when they need me. Emotions are a fucked up thing.

What are you thinking about this week? List 3 things and go into detail. They can be whatever you want to talk about!

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1. What one thing would you like to accomplish before the end of the day?
Checking my email would be nice.

2. What one goal would you like to attain before the end of the month?
Finishing my Harry Potter book would be nice.

3. Are you a "to-do list" writer? If so, do you stick to your list and cross things off as you complete them?
I never used to be, but the older I get, the more like my Mammaw I become. I've started making lists just like her. It's nice to be able to check things off, but it also lets me see all my goals in one space so my brain doesn't explode.

4. In general, how organized do you feel you are?
I am organized to a fault. I'm self-professed anal-retentive OCD. I like my order.

5. How many piles of papers/junk mail/etc. do you have laying around your house?
Usually, none. Mail gets gone thru at the mailbox. Most of it rarely enters the house. I hate crap lying around that I don't need.

6. Which one surface in your home do you have trouble keeping clean?
The kitchen counter. It's black, so *everything* shows up on it. And Squeeek likes to walk on it when we're not around, so there's always cat hair on it. Goofy child.

So, my webhosting place decided to make changes to the webmail interface without telling anyone or testing it, and now I can't check my email. I can add and delete accounts tho! w00pEE!. They're working on it, but why you gotta go and fuck with my email access? I don't need bells and whistles! It's just email! Oh well, hopefully it'll be back up soon.

Hope I haven't missed anything important today!

So, I took the day off from work yesterday to recover from the weekend. I slept til about 10:30a and had some coffee, then took a trip to PetSmart to get some of these nasty freeze-dried fish chunks that Squeeek likes. The plus side was that he got a new bed for a penny. Really! I was out of the store before I realized they only charged me a penny for his $10 bed. I spent the rest of the afternoon being mostly inconsolable, taking most things the wrong way, and watching tv and movies. Josh made a really yummy turkey dinner that hit the spot. I spent the rest of the evening at my new next door neighbor's house hanging out with him and his friend. Both of them work with Josh, so everyone already knew each other.

I got up about 10 mins before my alarm this morning, took a shower, and made coffee since I had extra time. I also made Josh coffee. Gee, wasn't that nice of me? :P It's been a pretty quiet morning so far. I've gotten thru my email, my physical mail, and my news. I have a few things to get done today, but nothing major. I think I'm having lunch with a friend today, so that'll give me an excuse to leave the office today.

I'm still not firing on most of my cylinders today, and if I could have taken the whole week off, I probly would have :P. Ah, the price I pay for partying!

I'll get thru the day, and then I think we're doing laundry tonight at the mat. Lots and lots of laundry. And a much put-off Costco trip will be had either tomorrow or Thursday. Bleh. And then Friday is movie night! 'Spaceballs' will be played, scotch will be drunk...it'll be good. I'm thinking the weekend will entail me sitting in the recliner watching stupid tv. Josh has BM construction duty all weekend, so he won't be around.

Anyway, back to the grind!

*awsome*!

Thursday morning, Schreck came and picked me and my stuff up, we ran some errands, packed the van, and were on the road by 1:45p. We got to the Field Day (2) site around 5:30p. This place was a first-come-first-serve place, and about 15 mins after we got there, a family showed up. d'0h! (They were eventually told about our party and left the next day). We scouted around for prime real estate (which we got!) and then set up camp. Other people were supposed to show up that evening, but didn't, so we got the place to ourselves (well, minus the family) for the night. It was totally cool. We got to see all the stars, and it was mostly quiet (you could hear freeway noise once in awhile and the occasional plane flying overhead). We saw a handful of satellites and a couple of shooting stars. I slept like a baby.

Friday, people slowly started showing up. It wasn't until about 9p that people started wanting to set up. Well, that kinda irked me since I was free Thursday and free all day Friday to do it, so I spent the evening 'not around'. If you say you're gonna do something, do it! No fucking around! Anyway, Saturday, more people started showing up. Josh got there around 2:30p or so. The afternoon turned into evening. Our music coordinator set up two *really* awsome live acts, and they were phenomonal! The rest of the music (besides the usuals awsomeness that is Hickory, Squelchy, Mike, Jessi, Stefi, and probly a few more that I forget at this point) was pretty good, but besides the live acts, my favorite was Dr.Toast. He played good music *and* he's cute. A bonus! A few of us even go to see a really bright shooting star. It was so big it left trails! More getting into trouble was had, and I think I got to bed around 4am.

Around 8:30a this morning, I got up and played Cuddle Fairy to someone and by the time I came back, coffee was waiting for me, and it was Teh Awsome. The original plan was to have coffee and get going. Well...I have been working hard on not doing much of anything lately, and ended up lounging around with J & I from like 11a until 3:30p when we finally decided that maybe we should surface and go home :P. We were out of there by 4:30p and got food, but traffic was stupid for no reason (as usual) on 80, so we didn't get home until about 8:30p. Josh unloaded the car while I checked my email and then I put away my stuff and took a shower. 4 days out in the woods will make anyone dirty as hell (even with going swimming one day!). It was gross :P. I washed my hair twice, conditioned it, washed my body twice, my face twice, and I *still* have dirt under my fingernails! Bleh :P. I'm gonna go clean out my bag, watch a mindless tv show, and go the hell to bed.

Josh got the great idea to take a personal day tomorrow from work, so that's what I did too. So, no alarm tomorrow! w00h00! Squeeek will probly still wake us up at 8:30a and go, "hey, why aren't you guys at work?". What can I say, he's a good alarm clock!

It was a *great* weekend, an *awsome* party, and a great time was had by all. But now I'm fucking exhausted both mentally and physically and I need a day to recover :P.

1. Are you a Chief or an Indian when it comes to work, working on projects, etc? Why/how so?
I'm an Indian, definatly. I just like to be told, "Hey, do this!". I like getting things done.

2. Are you able to be both a Chief and an Indian when the situation calls for it? Why/why not?
Sure. But I'm such a Chief in most every other aspect in my life, that when it comes to groups of people doing things, I like to just be an Indian. But, I'm not above taking charge when the situation calls for it.

3. Is there a particular situation as of late where you have had to be one or the other? What was it?
In my Planners group, I'm known as The Head Indian. I get things done. It's fullfilling!

1. Are you a Chief or an Indian when it comes to work, working on projects, etc? Why/how so?

3. Is there a particular situation as of late where you have had to be one or the other? What was it?

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So, tonight is the Rush concert. Tomorrow morning, Schreck is picking me up around 9:30a and we're going food shopping for BLT makings and the like, and then we're leaving towne at 1p. So, I will be unreachable after 12pm tomorrow until Sunday evening. Supposedly there is cell service there, but my fone will be off. No cell fones at campouts, dammit!

I don't want to be bothered this weekend. And the people I *do* want to be bothered by, I'll be with! If you really need to get ahold of me, leave me a message, but I will not be checking my VM regularly.